She believed a volume documenting these excesses would be a big seller, and she obtained a contract and an advance to write such a book. Because she is honest, open, and thorough, she encountered her own barriers to delivering the contracted manuscript. Along the way to fulfilling that obligation, interviews of parents and caregivers ultimately led her to do something apparently unique among her peers: she actually set out to do comprehensive research to see if her thesis, based on the multiple stories written by her colleagues (e.g., at the New York Times, Wall Street Journal, and elsewhere) was actually true, whether the often repeated and widely believed "narrative" about psychiatry, medications, and children fit with reality. And what she learned turned her completely from her starting position. Early in her book, she sets the record straight about her conversion experience and the embarrassment and shame she now feels about the stance she had been preparing to take: